Reflections at Dawn

My mind opens out to its immediate surroundings from the semi-sleep mode it is in. It looks at relationships with friends, family, nature and becomes aware of spatiality in the physical, mental and philosophical contexts. The drone of the bees as they drink nectar from the flowers reaches the ear during a period of silence from the road below. A spider’s web is caught in the sunlight among the trees. The thought occurs – is it possible for a person to live all the time in pure and complete consciousness, with it driving all his thoughts and actions, examining himself and his relationship with the world keeping his inner core of super consciousness as the center and spreading his perspective in all directions, firing up all the networks and connections in his brain in all directions and all planes to look completely outward and completely inward? What will be the impact of such a person on today’s world, positive or negative? Will that person be a source of strength, calm and peace for himself and existence, or will he be a disturbance (sometimes terrifying) depending on his relative position to those around him? I suddenly visualize my core being as a trillion mirrors reflecting everything and everybody around me. I then think that if the core is pure consciousness should it reflect anything at all or just be a column of nothing, a nothing into which all things enter and from which things emerge based on the highest potentiality at that moment? I wonder if it was like this at the moment of birth when the first sensation reaches the untainted(?) consciousness and the cycles of sensation-response began and again will it be like this at the time of death when gradually all sensations-response cease one by one till there is only pure consciousness left once again? Was it like birth at the beginning of this cycle of existence and did pure consciousness project out the universe and then start the cycles of sensations-response and will it be once again like death at the end of this cycle of existence ? Most of us believe that in the beginning everything came out of nothing and in the end it will all end up in nothing don’t we?

Then again, being pure nothing in the core will make one nobody won’t it? I recalled Roger Ebert, Johnny Depp and the quote from Ebert’s review of Dead Man against Depp’s picture on Facebook that I saw the previous night – ‘Johnny Depp is sad and lost as the opposite of Nobody, which I fear is Every Man’. The Johnny Depp connect makes me recall Absalom the smoking caterpillar and his subsequent transformation into a butterfly in the Tim Burton movie Alice in Wonderland. With my smoking and reflections I wonder if I will turn into a butterfly one day but before that I would need to become wise like Absalom i would think. Or is it not better to just become nobody and nothing? Both easier said than done.